Someone Worth Dying For

After having a huge mental/spiritual/emotional struggle the other night, a dear friend of mine began praying over me, over and over, that God would just reveal Himself to me and show me how He loves me.
Each of the prayers prayed over me that night revolutionized my walk with Christ. It was because of those prayers that I leaped. It was because of those prayers that I was able to trust that God would catch me.

It was also because of those prayers that God wrote a song through my pencil. 'Someone Worth Dying For' came from my realization that the love and grace that flowed the moment I was conceived was enough to cover my guilt, my shame, my fear, my pride. All I had to do was humble myself and tell God that I couldn't do it on my own.

So yeah! I am going to share with you the first verse and chorus of 'Someone Worth Dying For', and Lord willing soon, I'll be able to share an acoustic video of the song.

Someone Worth Dying For

Struggling against this deepening ache 

A chasm widening day by day

Too afraid to let go but

Longing to be free from this shame

See, God, I can praise Your Name

And I can pray for others, beg Your grace

But it took a night of brokenness

To give You all of the pain

Now here I am standing in a shower of love

It's pouring down heavy from Your throne above

God, You took all my fear in that moment of peace

You brought me to my knees

And showed me I am someone

Someone worth dying for

Never forget that you ARE someone worth dying for! The guilt and fear you have are not from God, but from Satan, and when you let go and let God, it makes all the difference! Love you guys!

Project Leap of Faith: Returned Edition!

Last night I returned to Primm Springs, Tennessee.

Tonight, as I reunited with many of my dear friends here, I felt a peace and excitement that haven’t been in me since I left.

That peace was turned to complete joy when I walked upstairs to see three young men, kneeling on the ground, praying fervently to the One who created them. Their passion, their love for Christ was so imminent in this act of humility, and the Spirit of God was so strong in that little living room. 

No lying, I cried. I cried because THIS is what I’ve missed. 

The understanding of how powerful praying truly is, the true love of God so deeply. It was such a blessing to see something that is so normal in these peoples’ lives.

Now, the question to ask: How am I humbling myself before the Lord? What am I doing to grow closer to Him?

More importantly, how am I keeping up my relationship with Him?

You can ask anyone who knows me, I am TERRIBLE about keeping in contact, especially long distance. So I really have to go the extra mile to make sure that my relationship with God stays my #1 priority!

One thing I notice I do a lot here in Primm Springs (and also did when I was here for my internship) is go on long prayer walks. I don’t know where I’m walking, I just know I talk to God in that time. Another thing that I do is take lots of notes on things I’ve been reading or on what we read in morning devotions, and then pray over them later in the day as I restudy them.

Make your relationship with Christ unique! Find the ways that better help you to focus on Him, and tie those into your routine!

In a physical relationship, you have to communicate for the relationship to thrive. It’s the same way with our spiritual relationships with Christ. He wants to hear from us, He wants you to tell Him about the things going on in your life! Tell Him about your excitement, or let Him know that you’re feeling down. Yes, God already knows what goes on in our lives, but He still loves it when you talk to Him.

A Tennessee Thanksgiving!

AHHHHHH!!!!

Next Thursday, I will be heading to Primm Springs, Tennessee!!! My incredible manager has made it possible for me to take off about 8 days so I can go home. I am so excited, I'll be seeing some dear friends (who became as close as family) as well as spending Thanksgiving day with my grandparents!